My boyfriend broke up with me. My family hated me. I flunked on three major exams. I got my first grade below 2.0. But there's good news too. God still loved me.
It may sound like a sad country tune but it all came true for me one semestral break, a few weeks before my birthday. I was anxious and in despair, and I felt as if everything I loved and wanted was abruptly taken away...my family...my love...my dreams...my life... I didn't see much hope for me.
I always found myself in our school's prayer garden, crying my heart out. I felt miserable and lost for a few months. I knew I should let go and let God do his ultimate plan for me. But I couldn't, or it's better to say that I wouldn't. I chose to travel the lonely path of my life.
That is, until I reread the story of Job who had it even worse. As the story unfolds, he loses his whole family, except for his sympathetic wife. Job also loses all his property and livestock. Then he suddenly breaks out in terrible boils. It seems that God isn't listening when in fact He is. As the story ends, God restored all Job's property and health. He also gave Job three daughters, the most beautiful in their land.
Ouch! My ranting heart is silenced. I realized that God's goodness and power cannot be questioned. God himself is the answer to any question I might have. I'll just have to wait for the "day of my life's restoration".
++ i wrote this three years ago...i found it in my Mechanics 3 notebook.
It may sound like a sad country tune but it all came true for me one semestral break, a few weeks before my birthday. I was anxious and in despair, and I felt as if everything I loved and wanted was abruptly taken away...my family...my love...my dreams...my life... I didn't see much hope for me.
I always found myself in our school's prayer garden, crying my heart out. I felt miserable and lost for a few months. I knew I should let go and let God do his ultimate plan for me. But I couldn't, or it's better to say that I wouldn't. I chose to travel the lonely path of my life.
That is, until I reread the story of Job who had it even worse. As the story unfolds, he loses his whole family, except for his sympathetic wife. Job also loses all his property and livestock. Then he suddenly breaks out in terrible boils. It seems that God isn't listening when in fact He is. As the story ends, God restored all Job's property and health. He also gave Job three daughters, the most beautiful in their land.
Ouch! My ranting heart is silenced. I realized that God's goodness and power cannot be questioned. God himself is the answer to any question I might have. I'll just have to wait for the "day of my life's restoration".
++ i wrote this three years ago...i found it in my Mechanics 3 notebook.
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