Concealed Sentiments

Broken and spilled out....these are the words that would best described my life. I'd reached my saturation/boiling point and I'd burst like a bubble. But who would have noticed? Who would have cared? I guess no one. For in this world, nothing lasts forever. The truth in a saying prevails: "Laugh, and the world laughs with you; Weep, and you weep alone." Whether we like it or not, we are alone in this crazy life. These are my reasons: 1. Even if we believe in God and have put our hope on Him, our human nature betrays us. In one way or another, the feeling of depression will try to soar through our inmost being. 2. Faith without work is dead. Even if we pray for ourselves and for others, action must be done. 3. Nobody stays beside you. Yes! We had bunch of friends, ever-supportive family, and a loving boyfriend/girlfriend. But there are times when you can't borrow their shoulders. They have their own lives to wrestle too. 4. We're on our own. Every human being ...

These past few days, I felt that my life was so dull and jaded. I am tired of my work..my family...my life. I want to rest in peace. OOpps...I don't want to die. I just want to rest with a peace of mind. But it's not easy. You can't change life circumstances as if you're changing clothes. So here I am..running back to the arms of my blog...my only friend who never failed to listen. I chose this theme because it reflects what I am feeling right now...BLUE. But, I still believe that the brighter side of life is not that far.....

These past few days, I felt like I am a small frog in a big pond called life. I am helpless, benign, ugly, clumsy and most of all, boring. I felt like I was just sitting on a floating lily pad and patiently waiting for a kiss handsome prince who would never come. Reality bites and I have to admit that my life sucks (perhaps just for this week). According to a metaphor, if you put a frog into a pot of boiling water, it will leap out right away to escape the danger. But, if you put a frog in a kettle that is filled with water that is cool and pleasant, and then you gradually heat the kettle until it starts boiling, the frog will not become aware of the threat until it is too late. A perfect story that illustrates where I am today. I am in a situation where there's nowhere to go but to this pot of boiling water. If only a frog had wings, I wouldn't bump my ass when I'll hop and I would probably fly unto the great big sky singing I Dreamed A Dream, from the musical Les Miserabl...

To those who faithfully visit my blog, today is your lucky day. Why? Because it's the first time I'll post my pictures with the love of my life! Wahahahaha...I know..I know...I sound corny and cheesy..a sentimental fool... I have some reasons why I spared some of my time to organize this memory lane thingy. First, I don't know what to do with my super free time (3 hrs) here at work. Secondly, I miss him (John) and lastly, he will be turning 23 this coming June 15. *P.S. and we 've been together for almost 5 years....to john, see you on your birthday (hugs and kisses)